breakfast: yukon potato hash browns made with shallots, roasted garlic and parsley with a broccoli roasted tomato Parmesan omelette and greek yogurt with fresh berries! Perfect sweet and savory breakfast :) Happy Sunday! Off to church!
breakfast: 12 grain toast with almond butter, honey cinnamon ricotta cheese, peach slices, and dusted cinnamon
best combination i have ever had on toast, so rich and delicious! Also had a broccoli omelette of course :D i am a bit caught up with homework right now so ill be on later to update you guys on things, ill make a video before heading out for school! xoxo love yas!
never let yourself say tomorrow, dont let yourself make up excuses as to why today cant be the day. Let yourself forget the past and allow every minute to bring new life and opportunity for every second arrives a new chance to bring yourself to a better place. live in the moment and ask yourself what will truly make you happy. today i had a craving for ice cream alllll day. ED tried to deny me of this sweet craving and I held it off all day. I sat in my bed at night and told myself that this is recovery, its time for me to start listening to my body and giving into my cravings whenever they come up. Its time for me to allow each opportunity to challenge and destroy my ED a little more to come my way so I can start living my life the way I want, not ED. Today I had the worst body image and I am assuming why that is why I held off my craving for so long. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself that I want to be normal so bad, I want to be free and most importantly I want to attain true happiness and freedom. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am so done with allowing my eating disorder to strip me of my identity and more importantly my inner peace. I felt so anxious all day as I tried to deny my cravings but once I got myself to actually go get my ice cream, I FELT 10x better! Exactly opposite of what I thought. Facing fears is starting to feel amazing, I am so done with this disorder and I am so excited that I can finally recognize and fight off EDs thoughts. This was a learning lesson, it takes alot of effort and strength to arrive and tackle a challenge but once I fully dive in and accept the challenge, I feel like I am on top of the world, so it is worth it.
happy birthday to my baby girl Trine, I hope all is well and you can enjoy this day with peace and hope that your new age will bring a new happy and healthy life for you. You have no idea how much you have touched my heart already, I just want to come see you, cook us food all day, sip tea and laugh and talk about lifes greatest adventures that we plan to obtain. I want you to know that you are so very special and deserve to have the biggest smile on your face and learn to replace the negative thoughts in your mind with beauty and grace because you have such a beautiful heart that ED should not take away. Love you and stay strong, live every moment ready taking in fresh air and knowing every moment and every step you take is a new time to start over. Fight this battle with two fists up baby girl because in the end this is the only life we’ve got, ill be with you every step of the way <3 Love you so much and I am eating some birthday cake to celebrate this new beginning for you, join me?
check out da peanut buttttttaaaa! dessert to start my day, and dessert to end my day. i’d like to say today was a pretty good day!
chocolate chip rustic banana cake with cream cheese frosting and a cinnamon and toasted almond dusting
mom: “Ashley what are you up too?”
me: “baking a cake”
mom: “haha very funny, now tell me what your really doing”
me: “haha if you dont believe me than you dont need to have a slice, ill have it all to myself!”
walks in the door 20 minutes later to see this beauty on the table.
mom: “okay i believe you now, can I please have a slice?”
ladies, you can have your cake and eat it too :D
KICKED EDS ASS TODAY! had all complete balanced meals and instead of my normal nighttime snack, i listened to my cravings and went out and had icecream with my sister! i got a MASSIVE waffle cone with chocolate PB buckeye! it was sweet victory.
stop waiting for tomorrow, make the change today. <3
i used to say i wanna remember amazing memories like this forever thinking they would never happen again, instead i wanna live these moments like these forever.