What is this mystery of a word that everyone claims they fufill, meet its “qualifications” yet cant seem to simply define the word itself. What is life and how do we live? Well I admit from the getcho I dont have the answer to this un-explainable question, but do I need to? Why cant everybody find their own definition? Besides, we all live our lives anyway so why try to find one definite answer and way to live? Instead of going through each day wondering when LIFE will really begin and when I will get out of this rut and routine my life has turned into, Ive decided to stop searching but instead take my first step into this magical journey, my journey. Make your recovery journey exactly that, YOUR journey. No magazine, therapist, online website or any other resource could possibly explain to you how you should live your life or how your life will plan out if you do X, Y, Z. Instead in my like I feel like I have to stop take a moment, and realize what a beautiful life I have right in front of me, who I am and what I want to be and how I want to live and love my life. I must life my life nothing or noone elses because all the comparisons and dreams to be other people complicates, negates, and ultimately destroys the way god planned out each individual unique journey for every walking, breathing, living person on this earth. So in the end, what am I exactly getting at here? Well my tips are to live in the moment, everyday your way what you want to do and be who you want to be and you will find your definition of life in that exact place, that warmth in your heart that you feel when you know your doing what is good for your soul is when you will realize your true meaning of life. I promise! So stop searching and start living, things will all work out in the end if you just take that first jump into YOUR life, best of luck on your journey and hope the grass is greener on the other side <3
Well yes, quite literally there is a light at the end of every tunnel. At church today this is what the pastor said but with my new mindset on life I thought of this saying way differently this time. In recovery there are surely ups and downs and people would consider the path to recovery the dark tunnel and being recovered as the light. I see things completely different. Why not walk ontop of the tunnel instead of inside of it? Inside a tunnel means being trapped, confined, restricted, all of the things eating disorders cause. Being in a tunnel is dark and unpleasant. When I think about recovery I think of freedom, hope, fresh air and beauty. Walking ontop of the tunnel creates a completely different atmosphere which is how I want my recovery to go, of course it’s not always sunny and perfect. The wind that hits on a sunny day that can sometimes knock us off the tunnel is EDs whisper trying to get the best of us and knock us down after staying strong for so long. There are cracks in the tunnel and bumps that try to make us fall into the darkness of EDs commands but keeping your eyes on the light and the beauty of life will help you see through these hard times. The light is not only there at the end, it’s there the whole way to guide you past these hurtles that life will always pose on you. Seeing the beauty in not only being recovered but the proccess of recovery is what will help you remain strong for the rest of your life. Taking the step outside of the tunnel is your first commitment to recovery and on the top the journey never ends, there is a path that will remain for your whole life and challenges one harder than the next but get over the first challenge and you will be able to forge through the ones that follow. Ultimately my point is not to bore you to death but to see that seeing life and recovery as beautiful and bright will help you stay strong for eternity. “heroes hang on one minute longer” each day hold on to recovery one minute longer and push away EDs voice a little bit more everyday and one day you’ll realize that you have control over your villan and you will be the hero of your life, ready for your next battle. So for now, see each day as it is and take one step at a time to be able to face the little challenges to realize you accomplished a big one in the end. stay strong my loves!
Sometimes we have to forget those who hurt us, if they really loved us they wouldn’t have let in the first place (Taken with Instagram)
Are eating disorders really even worth it? I for sure have come to realize that my 5 yr struggle with anorexia has only caused me to let my beautiful high school years turn to chaos and darkness. Its striving for an unforeseen goal, nothing is EVER good enough so why keep going to get more depressed and sad and fragile? I really want to give it up and make a goal, one that is attainable and will make me feel GOOD, being healthy. Feeling really inspired tonight <3
let yourself free <3
had a rough day yesterday, cant let myself fall backwards so i inspired myself and fixed up my mirror never forgetting my goals. im not looking back and never giving up.