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Hey! The names Ashley. Looking for inspiration and strength to recover me fully from my battles with anorexia. Also looking to show the world my sense of style an daily eats! oh, and i love flowers :D Trying to learn to be FULL,
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why wait for tomorrow to challenge myself when the oppertunity presents itself today! In response to my video, challenging myself once a day for the whole month of February for NEDA month, I decided I would start today with a bowl of my moms homemade chicken noodle soup with white orzo noodles, carrots, celery, fresh herbs, topped with parmesan cheese! On the side I had some whole grain sesame crackers. Nothing better than a homemade bowl of soup while being sick! So happy I am actually doing this :) going to be the start of a great month!

why wait for tomorrow to challenge myself when the oppertunity presents itself today! In response to my video, challenging myself once a day for the whole month of February for NEDA month, I decided I would start today with a bowl of my moms homemade chicken noodle soup with white orzo noodles, carrots, celery, fresh herbs, topped with parmesan cheese! On the side I had some whole grain sesame crackers. Nothing better than a homemade bowl of soup while being sick! So happy I am actually doing this :) going to be the start of a great month!



this is meeee, the names Ashley. Never been happier. Went out all day yesterday and was put out of my comfort zone in so many ways but it was amazing. I was able to just be myself and enjoy the night. Wow its so weird to even think that i have truly developed a personality, a passion for life, and even just simply a balanced life after everything I have been through. I really never thought it was possibly to recover from my ED, i was ready to accept it and just tell myself this is who I am and who I will always be and never thought there was anything better on the other side of my struggles. I am happy to say I feel freedom, even though I still have plenty of thoughts like everyone else, I still  have regrets, body image days, hard times with food (but rarely!), I can look past them and not have it affect my day, i can see right beyond those destructive thoughts that used to take up my day and just smile and let it all go knowing that if I engaged in those thoughts, itd be taking away from the amazing life I have built around me. I hope everyone in recovery comes to realize that if you just give recovery a chance, step one foot in the right direction, it feels so good to be able to feel the change in your life and put the demon inside of you to rest. Everyone deserves to be free, both you and me <3  :) xxx

this is meeee, the names Ashley. Never been happier. Went out all day yesterday and was put out of my comfort zone in so many ways but it was amazing. I was able to just be myself and enjoy the night. Wow its so weird to even think that i have truly developed a personality, a passion for life, and even just simply a balanced life after everything I have been through. I really never thought it was possibly to recover from my ED, i was ready to accept it and just tell myself this is who I am and who I will always be and never thought there was anything better on the other side of my struggles. I am happy to say I feel freedom, even though I still have plenty of thoughts like everyone else, I still  have regrets, body image days, hard times with food (but rarely!), I can look past them and not have it affect my day, i can see right beyond those destructive thoughts that used to take up my day and just smile and let it all go knowing that if I engaged in those thoughts, itd be taking away from the amazing life I have built around me. I hope everyone in recovery comes to realize that if you just give recovery a chance, step one foot in the right direction, it feels so good to be able to feel the change in your life and put the demon inside of you to rest. Everyone deserves to be free, both you and me <3 

:) xxx


literally I have never felt so happy like I am when I am with Kathryn. We both agreed that the best advice for eating disorder recovery is to eat ice cream, peanut butter, and someone else who is in recovery. Everything about Kathryn is beautiful, wholesome, happy, caring and fun. This picture perfectly depicts our days together, happiness and fun and laughing until we have six pack abs :) well right now we are going to get some ice cream on waffle cones at Brusters! I AM SOOOO EXCITED &lt;3 love you kathryn!

literally I have never felt so happy like I am when I am with Kathryn. We both agreed that the best advice for eating disorder recovery is to eat ice cream, peanut butter, and someone else who is in recovery. Everything about Kathryn is beautiful, wholesome, happy, caring and fun. This picture perfectly depicts our days together, happiness and fun and laughing until we have six pack abs :) well right now we are going to get some ice cream on waffle cones at Brusters! I AM SOOOO EXCITED <3

love you kathryn!


le breakfast of a obese man hungray gal ready to live, love, and enjoy her life, no matter what others think. 

enjoying it even more because i know it is what is right for my body.. <3


this is me and my sister Brooke, i am a part of a triplet but this is my twin. We have both struggled long and hard with our eating disorders but today we shared such a special moment. It was one of those moments where you realize youve made it. You&#8217;ve walked across the rocky waters and made it past the stormy dark days. We started hysterically crying because this has been such a journey. We thought we were hopeless and that we would never change but now there are true smiles on our faces and we are finally done with the sorrow and pain and have made our way to see happy healthy days. Not every day is perfect and I cant say ED still doesnt sit on my shoulders but we have flourished into two individuals who can love and accept each other not for what we look like, what we eat, or what we do, but for who we are. The best thing that has come out of my recovery is fixing my relationship with you Brooke, I am so happy we have overcome our disorders and our comparisons with each other. I will love and accept you no matter what and I never thought we could mend our relationship but we did. We are living breathing examples that you dont have to be 5&#8217;11 and a skinny minny to be happy, you can be of a normal size and weight and be even more happy than any super model will ever be. You can have your cake and eat it too, my life has never been so amazing, and it is all because I decided one day that I was done with my eating disorder. You all have the power to create something beautiful out of your life, so do it &lt;3  xxxx

this is me and my sister Brooke, i am a part of a triplet but this is my twin. We have both struggled long and hard with our eating disorders but today we shared such a special moment. It was one of those moments where you realize youve made it. You’ve walked across the rocky waters and made it past the stormy dark days. We started hysterically crying because this has been such a journey. We thought we were hopeless and that we would never change but now there are true smiles on our faces and we are finally done with the sorrow and pain and have made our way to see happy healthy days. Not every day is perfect and I cant say ED still doesnt sit on my shoulders but we have flourished into two individuals who can love and accept each other not for what we look like, what we eat, or what we do, but for who we are. The best thing that has come out of my recovery is fixing my relationship with you Brooke, I am so happy we have overcome our disorders and our comparisons with each other. I will love and accept you no matter what and I never thought we could mend our relationship but we did. We are living breathing examples that you dont have to be 5’11 and a skinny minny to be happy, you can be of a normal size and weight and be even more happy than any super model will ever be. You can have your cake and eat it too, my life has never been so amazing, and it is all because I decided one day that I was done with my eating disorder. You all have the power to create something beautiful out of your life, so do it <3 

xxxx


please tell me I am not the only 18 yr old girl laughing and running around my house in happiness that I got my third period cycle after 6 years of not having it! Omg celebrating with my best friends Ben&Jerry :) screw being upset and depressed about cramps, pimples, and bloating, ladies this is a TRUE SIGN OF HEALTH! i could seriously cry in happinesss. hope everyone is having a great night!

p.s. My messages arent working :/ xoxo


pumpkin apple cranberry oats with PB and greek yogurt, fall bliss!

pumpkin apple cranberry oats with PB and greek yogurt, fall bliss!


everybody wants happiness, nobody likes pain. You cant have sunshine, without a little rain

everybody wants happiness, nobody likes pain. You cant have sunshine, without a little rain


the secret to my heart: Toast with banana and peanut butter <3

breakfast: 12 grain toast with peanut butter, banana, homemade pumpkin spice creme, roasted cranberries, and honey!