three pounds up from where I was when I last weighed myself, and I still love my body just the same, if not more. When I used to picture gaining weight ED thought of the worst places he convinced me it would go and he always said seeing bones is beautiful. You know what ED, Ive got something to tell you. No I dont have a six pack, no I dont have a thigh gap, no you cant see every rib on my body anymore, nope no more defined jaw bone, but you know what, I love who I am without all of those things and I love myself more and more every time I begin to look like Ashley, not my anorexia. This girl right here has eaten ice cream, pasta, bread, oil, butter, carbs, cookies, milk, and all the other things I feared would make me fat and flabby. Food makes me happy and life excites me, I no longer walk behind your shadow, you walk under mine. I love who I am becoming, and this time you will not stop me.